Monday, July 28, 2014

Lost in Translation




I recently had a rather difficult and interesting experience with a baby delivery.  

 Frankly, I am at the point in my language learning that I feel fairly comfortable in conversations – especially in the medical realm.  Often I bump into words or concepts that I don’t know, but I know enough Yalunka to allow me ask questions and figure out the meaning -usually.  I have come a long way from our first year in the country – where I felt lost a lot of the time. 

 In our new village, though, we are suddenly being exposed to two new languages that I am being challenged to learn.  At first, it was just going to be Pular (spoken by the Fulani tribe that surrounds us) so I set out to add that language to my Yalunka and French.  Fortunately, many of the Fulani also speak Krio – a language that I grew up speaking in Sierra Leone (well, actually a mix of 40 languages that has become one language).  Speaking Krio has saved me many a time as I encounter a Fulani in a medical situation.  

 I have a basic understanding of Pular now and can understand a lot of what is being said in a medical context and can communicate on a toddler level about how to take medicines.  Now, however, as our patient base broadens, the Malinke language (the trade language in the bigger towns in this area) is being used more and more.  Seriously????  I am not that smart!  SLOWLY I am recognizing more and more words in Malinke and can usually communicate how to take medicine –as long it is only one or 2 pills – and taken not more than 3 times a day!

On Friday, a Fulani man came to get me to tell me that his wife was in labor and waiting at the clinic for me.  “Dr.” Sana, the other healthcare worker, was out of town.  I arrived to find a young woman sitting quietly on the porch of the clinic.  One of the midwives arrived at the same time as I did.  We opened up the clinic and go the woman settled on the floor – lying on top of an old tablecloth.  I was beginning to feel frustrated as I tried to talk to her.  I could tell from her medical record that she was full term – and that this was her 6th baby.   

When I tried to ask how long she had been in labor, and if her water had broken, I was not getting clear answers from anyone.  It was about 6 pm when we arrived in the clinic.  I was tired from working all day, and the midwife was exhausted from not sleeping the night before and from working all day. Added to that is the fact that we are at the end of Ramadan, the month of fasting for Muslims.  All of those things added together to make the midwife a little crabby and not super willing to help.

After getting her settled, we checked progress with her labor.  She was barely dilated.  The midwife wanted to send her back to her home – quite a distance from the clinic.  I said, No, let’s see how she does for a while and if things are going slowly, we can send her to stay with friends here in town.  That way I knew that she could get back to the clinic quickly if needed.  We hung out for about an hour and then check her again.  She had made quite a bit of progress in that hour and was now dilated to 2 cm.   

Since it was her 6th baby, I wanted her to stay a while longer.  The midwife was quite put out and fussy.  Within another hour, Dr. Sana showed up and we checked her again.  She was about 3 -4 cm.  Dr. Sana and I decided that she was still a little ways from delivering, but that she should stay at the clinic, based on the progress that we had already seen.  With that decided, Sana went to bed (in his room in the clinic) – telling me to call me if we needed him.  He too had been up all night the night before and had just returned from another village with his wife – having to walk the last few miles in the decreasing daylight because their motorcycle broke down and they had to push it home.

By this time, the two other midwives in training had showed up and they were all crabby.  They wanted to send Kadiatou home.  They all insisted she wasn’t really in labor.  Darkness was coming, which meant that it was reaching the time they could break their fast and eat for the evening.    I insisted that they go and eat.  Reluctantly, they agreed and took off, leaving Kadiatou and I alone in the dark clinic.  I was a little frustrated at my lack of ability to communicate, but was thankful for peace and quiet with the three fussing midwives gone.  (Side note here, if I had been up all night the night before and fasted all day, I would likely have been crabbier than they were at that point.)  I settled down on the floor beside her to wait.  She would rest, and then a contraction would hit and she would reach for my hand.  I sat there, praying for her and for the village.

Another hour slipped by.  She was getting increasingly uncomfortable, and so was I.  It was getting late.  I was tired.  The mosquitoes in the clinic were terrible.  I was hungry.  One by one, the midwives came back from eating.  I decided to take a break and come home for a bite to eat and to grab some bug spray.  I returned to the clinic and we sent the two midwives in training home.  Kadiatou didn’t seem to be making a lot of progress, though she continued to have lots of contractions.  I still could not ask her how she was doing.  The midwife settled down to sleep on a patient bed that was in the next room.  I got an old plastic tablecloth and lay down on the floor at Kadiatou’s head, so she could reach my hand if she needed.  I quietly tried to encourage her – knowing that she didn’t understand what I was saying.  I could feel her watching me in the dim light emitted by a small lantern.  

As I lay on the hard, cold floor, I could hear the mosquitoes buzzing in my ears.  I could see spiders crawling on the walls and floors and see other bugs zooming towards and away from the lantern.  I looked over to see a centipede making its way toward my head.  I grabbed my head lamp and smashed it – smelling the nasty odor they emit when killed.  I was exhausted, but sleep wouldn’t come.  I was frustrated that I couldn’t really ask how she was doing.   

Every once in a while, she would tap my hand and look at me pleadingly, asking me to check her progress.  I would check, but explaining what I was finding was difficult.  The baby was coming SLOWLY – I tried to explain with gestures.  I dozed a little, waking up to find Kadiatou throwing up all over the floor by my head.   

I looked at the clock.  It was after 1 am.  I woke the midwife up.  We needed to make a decision about what to do.  We could barely reach baby’s head when we examined her.  It seemed that we were still a long way away from delivery.  Did we keep her at the clinic or send her to a friend’s house?  I wanted to go home, leaving the midwife to sleep in the clinic on the bed – NO go.  She wouldn’t let me leave.  She said – it is YOUR fault we are still here.  I wanted to send her home a long time ago but you insisted she stay here.  I don’t think they baby is coming tonight.   If YOU go HOME, I go HOME.  

 Okay then…… I tried to ask questions of the mom and granny with her – translating through the midwife.  I could understand enough Malinke to know that what I was saying was NOT was the midwife was passing on.  I was getting more and more frustrated.  I felt like I couldn’t get a good handle on how mom was doing and what she wanted to do.  This was her 6th baby, after all.  It wasn’t like she was a newbie at this.

In the end, we decided to send her to friend’s house in town – knowing that she would only be a few minutes away if she needed to come back.  We told them to come back in a few hours. Kadiatou looked uncertain.  I gave her a few Tylenol.  I debated about waking up Sana to talk to him about it – but decided in the end that the midwife and I could make the decision.  I wrote him a note and slipped it under then door.  She was having lots of contractions and in the back of my mind, I wondered if we were doing the right thing.  But the progress seemed to have slowed, and I knew that she would be just up the road from the clinic, so I sent her on her way and we took off for home.

I got home and fell into bed, exhausted.  I woke up at 7:30am – anxious about Kadiatou and how she had done through the night.  I wondered if they had arrived back at the clinic.  I tried to sit down and have my quiet time and drink some coffee, but I couldn’t concentrate.  I felt like I had failed her.  I should have tried harder to communicate.  I should have insisted that the midwife work harder to talk with her.  I got dressed and ran to the clinic.   

As I passed one of the in-training midwives, I asked how Kadiatou was and if she was at the clinic.  She looked at me funny, and said, no.  I arrived at the clinic and met the midwife.  I asked about our patient.  She started laughing.  Apparently, Kadiatou arrived at her friend’s house, and delivered the baby about 15 minutes later.  15 MINUTES!  

 I felt very stupid.  How did I miss that?  Now I really felt like I had failed her.  How horrible it must have been to know that the baby was coming and to be sent home by the white lady who is supposed to have a clue about delivering babies!  I knew I needed to go and see her, even if I could barely face her.  I asked which house she was in, but they said, wait.  They had sent someone to bring mom and baby to the clinic.  I sat and waited.   

Soon she showed up.  Baby was SO beautiful – a big, healthy boy.  Mom had a BIG smile on her face and thanked and thanked me.  For what????  I wasn’t sure.  The baby was naked, wrapped in a blanket, so I dressed him in a little baby outfit donated by friends in the US.  I told mom in Yalunka how beautiful he was and what a great job she did.  I know she didn’t understand, but I saw her watching me hold and kiss on her baby.  She was smiling and she was thankful.  I was blown away.

I learned a few things through that experience….
1.        I need to listen to my gut more.
2.       I need to work harder to find out what is going on my patient.
3.       Babies do seem to have a mind of their own.
4.       People here are very gracious if they fell like you have tried to help.
5.       Despite my lack of understanding a mutual language with her, I was somehow able to at least communicate that I cared and wanted to help.  She saw that and forgave my mistake.

May I be as gracious to others!

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